I'm so sick of waiting!
I still have not gotten my period. It sucks! When I don't want her to show up, she's early. I can't do anything with the IVF until then.
This past week has been unbearable. Hearing or seeing ANYTHING pregnancy related makes me cry. And NO, I'm not pregnant because I already took a test it was WAY negative. I thought maybe by some fucking miracle, I might be able to save $30,000 and get pregnant naturally like the rest of the world. But NOPE.
I feel like crap. I'm sick of being sad and feeling broken. I'm sick that I have to pay $30,000 to have something that most of the world gets for free! I'm sick of getting bill after bill that I OWE to the hospitals and clinics for all the fertility testing. It's not fair. I hate this. I hate life right now. I have no motivation to do anything. Nothing. I go home and do nothing. Just sit there and wait for my period. So much for my therapy eh? Maybe I need to go back. Fuck!!
Oh well. Done with this pitty party. Sorry to be such a downer.
3 comments:
I'm sorry.
It sucks. It blows.
It does all the above. And more.
And damn, at the beginning of the post I was hoping you were preggo. go figure when you need her she is late.
Feel better soon.
I'm sorry it does suck. Sending hugs your way. :)
Don't be sorry! You have every right to be angry and frustrated.
You don't need to go back to counseling, just try to remember the things she taught you.
I love you, and this WILL happen for you.
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