I just want to SLEEP already!!!

These hot flashes are so bad now. I can not sleep. I'm up every freaking hour on the hour and I wake up completely exhausted. I have NO energy all day to do anything. There are so many things I want to still do around the house and I have no energy to do any of it.
My last shot was August 8th. So, hopefully by September 8th, the Lupron will no longer be effective and my body will start back to normal. I have no idea how long it will take to become normal, but I'm praying the hot flashes will at least subside by then.
I have a new respect for all women going through menopause.


Russ and I had our 2nd week of our new Wednesday tradition............We went to the bar and had $0.25 Wings and a tall beer. It's fun. We get a lot of planning for the house done when we do that. Last night we decided on painting the dining room this weekend and possibly even the bedroom.

I have a $150 in cash for my birthday and I decided that I'm going to get a Hair Cut, High Lights (BIG CHUNKY ONES) and my nails done. I'm going to completely spoil myself! Don't know what I'm doing as far as the hair cut, but I'll figure it out. I'll take pics with my new cameral whenever it is done.

My UTI is on it's way out. Thank goodness!! Between no sleep and peeing razor blades, it's been a crap ass week so far. Guess it can only get better right.

Well, I need to get some work done.

Have a GREAT Thursday!

WHY???

Why is it that I have to have a Super Sensitive Urethra (sp?). I get UTI's so easily.

DH and I had a fun filled weekend of Sexy Time and now I'm paying for it. I woke up this morning and thought for sure I just pee'd out razor blades. It hurt so bad. I have no idea why I got one either. I drink the water before and after. I pee right after. Russ and I both shower before because it's so stinking hot down here that all we do is sweat all day. So, I KNOW we are not dirty. So WHY must I get these irritiating infections. I called the Dr right at 8am this morning. Got an appointment for 9:15. I thought this was GREAT. However, I got there and 9:15. Got called in at 9:30 and then sat in the little room waiting on my stupid dr for the next 35 minutes. I was NOT happy. There were not even any magazines in there. I would have rather waited in the "Waiting Room" where I can read magazines or people watch.
Anyway, she came in all bubbly and I wanted to slap the life out of her. I mean it's one thing to leave a patient waiting for that long, but why the fuck would you leave someone with a Urinary tract infection waiting. I mean you can't pee because you have to hold it for the CUP Speciman and you feel like your about to wet your pants. I just think that's fucked up. They could have given me a cup to pee in so I wasn't in so much freaking pain. Anyway, she gave me a prescription and I left! Drove straight to Walgreens so I could get my RX filled. I told them I'd wait for the RX because I NEEDED to get my first dose in. So, 15 minutes later, I hear my name get called back to the pharmacy. I go back and the lady says "Well, your insurance will cover the generic version of this, which would mean you'd pay $27. But I don't have the generic version here. If I fill the name brand, it will cost you $129. Well, I wasn't about to spend that. So, I had to go back to my office and call FIVE different pharmacy's trying to find one that carried Generic Cipro. Believe it or not, it was the OTHER walgreens across town. They had 10 pills left. I need 7. I said GREAT, I'll be right there.

So, finally at 12:30, I got to take my medicine and I'm feeling much much better now. But what a pain in the freaking ass!!

If I didn't like sex so freaking much, I'd just stop doing it and get artificially inseminated. Unfortuneately, I'm probably considered a borderline Nympho, so that would NEVER work.

Russ is cooking veal parm tonight. YUMMY! Then I'm going to watch the closer and head off to bed.

Night Night to All!!!

33

That's how old I am today!! Happy Birthday to ME!!!

33 is my FAVORITE number, so I KNOW this is going to be a great year. I know this is the year that I'll get my long awaited BFP!

Russ and my parents bought me this camera! It's the one I wanted.

I LOVE it. I've already taken pictures and videos with it.

I don't really have anything exciting at the moment to take pics and video of, but I'm having fun anyway.

Tonight Russ is making me Veal Scallapini and we're watching movies. MY kind of movies. The Girly kind that he never watches. I'm also going to request that we play Scene It because he NEVER plays with me, but it's my BIRTHDAY, so I think he will tonight.

After all that fun, I'm sure we'll be heading upstairs for some "Sexy Time"

I think I'm HIGH

Seriously! We had to put primer over the wallpaper in the bathroom in order to paint it and it is STRONG!!! I think I've burned all the hair in my nose! It made me all light headed and goofy.
I should have had some teenageers come over and do it for a free buzz

In other news, Russ and I finished the bathroom (priming it anyway), then we went out for some wings and beer. Yummy!

Work has been so busy. I'm so tired when I get home. Also, I'm so behind at work. My stupid assistant who I gave a flexable schedule to has fully taken advantage of her "flexable" schedule. She has not worked in a freaking MONTH! Every time I tell her that I really need her to come in, she has some excuse. Dr's appointment, out of town, something with her daughter. It's freaking ridiculous. I think I need to fire her.
Anyone need a job????

My birthday is in 2 days. I'm excited because it is my 33rd birthday. I LOVE the number 33. It's my favorite number. That means I shall definately get knocked up this year. Maybe I'll even give birth before the dreaded 34. One can dream.

Well, I must go pass out now. Between fumes and a LARGE beer at the steakhouse, I need to get some shut eye!!

Love & Baby Dust!!

Damn I'm MAD!

So, my plan this week was to tear down the wallpaper in the guest bath (cause it's hideous) and paint it. Today I went and got all the supplies, scorer (sp?), wall paper remover spray stuff, scraper, etc. Got home, scored part of the wall, sprayed the spray, let it sit for 20 minutes........came back and started scrapeing and GUESS WHAT????? ...........................they put the wall paper DIRECTLY on the drywall. No sizing, no nothing. So, when I took the wallpaper off, along game the first layer of dry wall as well. FUCKING A!!!!

Now we are going to have to wall paper OVER the other wallpaper. I freaking hate wall paper. But we'd probably have to re dry wall the bathroom otherwise. The worst part is................I can't freaking wallpaper. Russ has to do it. And that's just going to thrill him since he has so many other things to do. I'm so upset about this. I know it's stupid to be upset about it (Russ has reminded me of that), but it's like I HAD a plan and now I'm dependent on when HE can do it. I hate that!

Now he's off hanging pictures. Thank god I got back from the store when I did. He's not all that talented on where to place pictures. I stopped him in the nick of time. Now he keeps calling me in all these rooms to get my opinion and I just don't give a flying fuck right now! For some freaking reason he thinks he has to get it done tonight. I have no idea why. The walls are going anywhere nor are the pictures.

Man I'm grumpy today. I need to stop all this bitching.

I'll just be thankful for my beautiful new home and my wonderful family. Life is good and it will only get better.

On that note, I'm signing off.

Hope you all have a great night!

I remembered!

I remembered what else I had to write about.
Two things regarding our new neighbors.



(1) I met the lady that lives across the street. She brought us a home made loaf of banana nut bread. It was so sweet. I actually feel like I live in a real neighborhood for the first time since living with my parents in Rush, NY.

(2) I met another couple. They are older and I forgot their name. Funny story on how I met them. I was coming back from the store and they were walking their dogs. I completely PASSED my own house. I realized it when I ended up in the cul-de-sac at the end our our street. When I came back and parked the neighbors were right in front of my house. When I got out of the car, the guy said "Did you forget where you live?". I felt like a complete moron. However, I got to meet some neighbors so not all was lost.
The other thing about them.................the wife asked if we had any children and HER HUSBAND replied with "They are currently trying." His wife and I both just had a dumbfounded look our face. Then he said "Danny told me". Danny is the guy who owned the house before us and Russ and him spent a couple hours talking the day before we moved. Obviously, the subject of us trying came up and then Danny must have told the neighbor. It totally freaked me out at first though.

Oh yah, one more thing. My parents went to the lake yesterday for a poker run. They got so drunk they SLEPT IN THEIR CAR!!! They are 60 years old!!! Can you imagine. I don't even party that hard. I'm kinda jealous.

Well, that's it.

I'm Relaxing..............

for the first time in TWO weeks!!!

I unpacked my LAST box yesterday. It felt so great! Everything is in it's place now. Well, we have not exactly hung anything on the walls yet, but at least everything is put away and organized!

My dryer broke yesterday. It still drys my clothes, but the timer doesnt work, so it just runs until I turn it off. Obviously this is not very safe, so we'll have to get it fixed. I'm just very thankful that it still drys clothes. It's not very old either. It's only about 4 years old, so it should not be broken at all. Hopefully Russ can fix it.

It's still 100+ degrees here. Oh wait, I have a picture of exactly how hot it is.

see how the hand has MELTED and turned the other way.

It's an outdoor thermometer and it was NOT in the sun. That's how HOT it is here. Freaking Sucks!!

I just want to feel 80 degrees again.

Well, that's it for now. I know there is more to say, but I can't remember now. I'll remember them later and do another post.

Love & Baby Dust!

FINALLY!!!

I have tv AND Internet!!!! I am complete!

We moved on Friday, August 10th. It was 102 degrees outside. If that was not bad enough, once we got Russ's truck and trailer loaded with ALL 4 of my TV's (amongst other things) and we were getting ready to load the box truck..........................it started raining! Out of no where, clouds appearred and the rain started pouring down. We quickily got the trailer in the garage and covered the truck bed with a tarp. It only lasted about an hour, and once it dried up, we pretty much got everything here and unloaded.

I have been cleaning and unpacking ever since. This house was DIRTY!!! I've never moved to a dirty place before. Both of the last places I bought were empty and CLEAN. This was extremely dirty and I'm still cleaning 6 days later. I'm almost done though. I just have to scrub the other half of the kitchen floor. I got half of it done today (with bleach) on my hands and knees. It took about 2 1/2 hours. I'm probably the only one that would notice the difference, but I feel so much better now that it's almost done. I have about 4 more BIG boxes to unpack, butg it's miscellaneous stuff and I have to figure out where it is going. Plus, Russ and I have to figure out where to hang our pictures and stuff.

Our Den (or media room as we call it) is AWSOME. I'll post a pic later. It's small, but it fits our 2 brand new recliners a table and our 47" HD TV perfect!!!

I LOVE this house. It's been a lot of work to clean it, but I absolutely love the lay out and the neighborhood. It's so nice to sit outside and hear nothing but nature or the occasional child playing outside. We are almost at the end of the street (it dead ends at a cul-de-sac), so we very rarely see ANY cars. In our last neighborhood, we were very close to a main road which was heavly traveled by 18 wheelers and I constantly heard air breaks. Also, a bunch of trashy punks lived down the street from us (we were the FIRST house on that street) and they go screeching up our road like maniacs. This place is SO different. It's so peaceful and pretty. It has TONS of trees in the whole neighborhood. I also LOVE my HUGE master bath. It's so big!!! My other master bath was smaller then a coat closet. It's so great having all that room to move. I also have a formal dining room that looks so rich with our new furniture. There are so many things I love about it. I just can't name them all. I just love, love, LOVE IT!!!

The best part of this move...................well, there are actually two. First, I lost 6 1/2 pounds!! Second, the last thing on my mind was getting pregnant or babies!

Now that I have internet, I will definately get all caught up on my blogging.

Well, I'm off to watch my BIG HD TV!!!

Almost Done..............

with two things. Packing AND my 2nd and LAST Lupron shot!

We move in 3 days. I can't believe it. This month FLEW right by me and I didn't even see it. I'm glad I started packing 28 days ago. Russ made fun of me (along with others), but it was so worth it. 3 days before we move and all I have left is last minute stuff that I really can not pack until Friday morning. I have done EVERYTHING for this move. Not that Russ has not wanted to help, he's just been so busy with his work and school, that he just does not have the time. However, I feel like he doesn't realize HOW much I've done. I've done all the loan application things (including chasing down all the skelatons in his closet from before we were together), I've had all the contact with the realtor, I've scheduled all the inspections, packed the ENTIRE house, and taken care of all the utilities. I honestly don't even know HOW I did it all. But I did. When moving day comes, I plan on being VERY lazy!! Russ took of two days for the move and he's going to be busy because I'm not doing ANYTHING but Unpacking!

Tomorrow I go for my second and final Lupron shot. I'm so glad I only have 30-45 more days of these hot flashes. I guess that's my only issue with this shot aside of the bleeding that finally stopped. The hot flashes would not be so bad, but it's been 95+ degrees for 7 days. Like that kind of heat is not bad enough, but I have to have hot flashes too. It's like my body at times is 200+ degrees. It's horrible. I just pray it was worth it. I hope that this is the last step in my TTC process. I think I've earned a BFP damn it. I've been through all the tests, surgeries, waiting................it's time for me to see TWO lines. I feel like it's never going to happen. I doubt tht possiblity every day. Russ trys to convince me that this is it. It's going to happen now, this was the last step in this long process, but I'm not sure I believe him. I'm just waiting for them to tell me yet another step I need to do. I'm not sure I can even hadle another step. Although I'm shocked that I"ve made it through everything so far, I'm not so sure I can handle much more.

I went to my mom's to clean tonight and I got to see Buddy. He's such a good little dog. Even my mom said this is by far the BEST puppy they've ever had. I truely believe that he realizes he was rescued and he's just being a good boy because he's so greatful. The people that live at the house we took him from still have not been home. If we would have left him there, he would have died this weekend. There is no way he could have survived 98 degree weather with NO water. I swear he knows that I'm the one that convinced my parents to take him in. He's SO excited when I come over My sister comes over and he's happy, but when I walk in, he's EXTREMELY happy. I feel so good about that. I'm glad that I can look at him and know that my persistance with my father paid off. I know they are happy now that they gave in. It was a big risk on their part though (with the other dog and such), not to mention a puppy is a lot of work. So I give them a lot credit for taking a chance with him. I know he appreciates it and I know the are happy that they took the chance. I guess it was just a win win situation.

Well, this is a really long post and I need to go to bed. I don't even have the energy to look for cute emoticons, so this is it!!

Later Gators!!!

Buddy's Story

Meet Buddy

This Cute little dog was basically abandoned by where I work. He lives across the street from where I work and there has been no one there for over a week. I kept telling my dad that he needed to steal the dog the next time he came over in our yard, but my dad did not want to upset the neighbors. Most likely because we don't work in the nicest area and he was afraid that they might mess with the building or something while we are not there. Anyway, last week it was in the mid to upper 90's all week. We got a hold of the landlord and asked about the lady that lived there and the dog. He said He's been trying to get a hold of her for a week and she's never there and does not return phone calls. The landlord also said that last he knew, she did not want the dog and that's why she left it outside. I guess she wanted it to run away. Well, once my dad heard this, he was much easier to convince to take the dog home. So, he checked with my mom and she said he could bring him home.

My big rescue plan was to just have him follow me in the door the next time he came in the yard. And that's pretty much how it worked out. He came over and I pet him for a minute then I walked in the building and he followed and my dad took him home that night. He got the name Buddy from my niece who played with him the day before at Arch Tech. My dad decided that's the name the dog would get. Kayla (My Niece) who wants a dog so bad but lives in an apartment, asked my mom if Buddy could be HER dog but live with them.

Buddy has adjusted very well to his new home. He has another dog to play with (Sam the dalmation) and he has a cat to torment (jake). He's pretty calm for a puppy. Definately still has the puppy energy though and chewing habits. But he listens really well and has only had One accident in the house.

He does not really care for the outside anymore. Who can blame him. He's spent his whole life outside neglected. I don't know how you can neglect that face!

On Monday he went to the vet. The vet guessed he is 4 1/2 to 5 months old based on his teeth. He weighed in at about 10 1/2lbs. He said all looks well aside of a patch of skin that has no fur. He said it's probably nothing and will grow in now that he's being properly nourished but to keep an eye on it. He also could not understand how someone could neglect or abandon that face.

Here are some pics of him at his new house with his new family:

And here is a littel video of him chasing bubbles.

http://s88.photobucket.com/albums/k193/bcannito/?action=view&current=100_1088.flv

He's adorable. Everyone loves him (excepte Jake the cat). He's not going to get much bigger. He'll probably be 16 or 17 lbs total. So he'll stay cute!!!

Beer/Lupron Theory (Test Day #2)

Ok, so last night I did NOT have any beers. And guess what? I was up at 11:30pm, 12:30am, 1:45am, 2:38am, 3:55am, and 5:26am with HOT FLASHES. I got out of bed at 6:30am and I've had 2 hot flashes by 8:15am. So, I think my beer theory is correct. If I drink................I shall not SWEAT! Good thing I don't need a prescription for Miller Lite
(Take Two Before Bed to Reduce Lupron Induced Hot Flashes)

Good News......Beer IS good for me!!!

Impossible you say??? Nope, it helps with the Lupron Induced Hot Flashes!!!



How have I determined this you ask? Let me tell you........................

As you know, I'm moving next week, so I've been doing a lot packing and it's been very hot. And since I can't get pregnant for 2 months, I decided to reward my hard working self with a beer or two at night. Well, on those nights, I'd wake up once or twice with a hot flash (from the Lupron). No big deal. The day after having a couple beers, I'd have one or two hot flashes during the day. Well, on Monday, I decided that maybe I shouldn't be drinking a beer or two a night, that probably makes me an alcohalic, so I decided no beer Monday. Well, I was up EVERY hour that night having major night sweats and then I had at least one every hour ALL DAY Tuesday. The only thing that was different from every other day was I did not have a beer on Monday. So, last night I had a beer and I only had one hot flash last night and so far, as of 9am, not one hot flash. So, obviously, beer helps reduce hot flashes! This is GREAT news! I'm going to keep testing the theory. Tonight, I will NOT drink beer and we'll see what happens tomorrow. This will prove my Beer Theory.

Speaking of beer, Does this look familiar Melissa??? Ha ha!!!

9 MORE DAYS.............Until I move. I can't wait. I'm so ready.

Well, I need to take Kayla to Horse Camp. Have a great Day!!