Another Sign????

I checked my mail today and I had an envelope addressed to me from Iredell Memorial Hospital. Now, this is not a hospital that I use. It's about a half hour or so from my house. I'm not affilitated with it at all.
When I opened the envelope, it was a pamphlet on "Pampered Pregnancy". Basically, it was all about there new and improved labor and delivery department. I just find it wierd that they sent it to me. It was not just addressed to current resident. It had my name on it! How did they know I'm even trying. Very freaky if you ask me. However, I'm going to chalk it up to another sign that this whole surgery thing is all I needed and I'll be pregnant in NO time!!
Still so anxious to for AF to get here so I can start trying again. I hate to wish my life away though, so I'm trying not to rush it.
I'm just going to keep my fingers crossed

It's FRIDAY!!!

I am SO tired. I can't wait to sleep in tomorrow. Russ has like 3 friends in town (from NY) and I was up until 12:30am chatting with them all. I usually go to bed between 9:30 and 10:00, so my body is SO NOT liking me right now. To make matters worse, work is very slow today. I may have to take a half day of vacation.



Nothing much new. My surgery incisions are healing well. Today is the first day that my belly button and area around my belly button are not burning like crazy. I think it's because I basically took all the Glue off except on the actual incinsions. I really think it was the glue pulling my skin that was making it so sore. I'd have to hold my shirt out when I walked because even a shirt rubbing on it hurt badly.
Oh, and I got to sleep on my tummy last night! Only for a bit, but it was worth it. I'm definately getting there.



I had my Party Lite party last night. I thought it was going to be a disaster since I only had 4 people coming. I thought I'd struggle to get the $250 in sales I needed for my $50 in credit and my half price item. And, I thought no way would any of these 4 book a party. I was SO wrong. As of 9pm last night, I have $573 in sales and 2 bookings. Holy Shit! I did end up with 3 outside orders. I had $382 from just the 4 girls that came to the party. Anyway, I'm going to have a TON of credit which is good since both items that I really want are like $79 each. I'll also get to choose two items at 1/2 price. Woo Hoo! I must say it was well worth it. Problem is, now my sister will be bugging me again in about 4 months to have another party! See if I had a crap party, I could use that as an excuse, but not now.



I can't wait for AF to show! NEVER thought I'd say that, but I'm so anxious to start trying again! I've got my thermometer out, so I'm Armed & Ready!!! I really hope it happens as fast as the Dr believes. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed.


I am driving Russ's truck this week. With his friends in town, they needed my van since there is 4 of them and 4 sets of golf clubs. Anyhow, I went to the post office yesterday and as I was getting out, I noticed that Russ's inspection on the truck was expired since................................JUNE 2006!! Are you fucking kidding me??? How ridiculous is THAT?
It's a good thing he has friends in town, because I would have reamed his ass! Instead,, I took his car over to the inspection place and I got it inspected for him. When I got home, I just told him that I took care of it and gave him a look! That was all it took. HE knew I was steamed, but none of the guys knew I was mad, so all went well. Russ was thankful and apologetic.
I can't believe that he was letting me drive around with an inspection sticker that expired 10 months ago.


I better get back to work! I want to make sure everything is done so I can leave after lunch!
Have a FANTASTIC FRIDAY!!!!

The Doctor is VERY Optomistic!

My Dr called me yesterday to check up on me and see how I'm feeling. I told him I was good. Feeling better each day and my incisions look really good. They are healing quite fast.
I asked him about the spots of Endo that he removed. He said on Thursday that he removed about 8 patches, but I wasn't sure how much that was, so I asked. He said it wasn't severe, but it defineatly wasn't a small amount. He said he'd classify it as Moderate, leaning more towards the severe side. Then he reassured me he got every last bit of it out! So then I asked him if he thinks that will make a differnece in the TTC area and he got VERY excited and said;

"Oh Yes!, it's going to make a huge difference. You and your husband have no other problems and this was significant enough to make a difference so I'm 99% sure this was your problem. I would not be surprised if you got pregnant within the next 3 months."

Needless to say, this caused a GIGANTIC smile to appear on my face!!!
So, After AF shows in a couple weeks (or less), I'll be back to Temping and peeing on my OPK's. Oh, and demanding sex from my husband EVERY OTHER DAY:) I feel like I'm getting a chance to start all over again. It's exciting!

I'm feeling 70% better today. I'm actually in the sitting position (stomache bent) and I'm not in excruciating pain. The muscles are a little bit tender, but nothing that will keep me down today. I have not even taken a pain pill. I'm excited at the notion that I may not have to lay in my bed today until my ACTUAL bed time! Woo Hoo!!!

Well, I need to get some work done!!

Love and Baby Dust to ALL!!

A couple things I forgot in the last post

Silly me! I forgot the 2 most important things about my surgery in the last post.

First, My Dr removed 8 patches of endimetriosis (sp?). I'm not sure how much that actually is and I didn't ask him cause I was still a little drugged. However, he did tell my sister that all of it was in the uterus area. None in my tubes or overies which was very good. He was able to remove 100% of it, so I won't need to be on any drugs. Woo Hoo!!

Second, My Dr told me that he performed this surgery on a girl last month and removed about the same amount of endomitriosis and she called him yesterday and told him she was pregnant. I would LOVE if that happened for me.

The Dr also said my overies and tubes were in GREAT shape! So, hopefully within the next 4 months of us trying naturally, we'll end up with a BFP! Fingers crossed and Prayers being said!

I survived the Surgery! (Long)

I was told to be at the hospital by 7:45am, I got there at 7:30am. I figured I'd be waiting a while, but I was wrong. They called me in at 7:35am. My sister wasn't even there yet. When I got in there, they did the whole temperature, blood pressure, pulse thing, had me get undressed and put on the pretty hospital gown. Mind you, I'm the size of a 12 year old and this was an adult gown, so obvioulsy it was REALLY big! I was incredibly thirsty since I was not allowed to drink ANYTHING after midnight. Then the nurse gave me a shot that completely game me cotton mouth. I could barely swallow. My doctor came in and talked to me for a bit, told me what the plan was and the the nurse put in my IV. My sister got there about then. I was so tired (I think from not eating for 24 hours) that I was actually falling asleep. Then the anesthesiologist (sp?) got there and explained what he was going to do. He said I'm going to give you something to relax you, then we'll go to the OR and you'll see Dr. Hall and some other doctor, then we'll put some oxygen on you and we'll put you out. After your out, we'll insert a breathing tube, blah, blah, blah. So, he gave me a shot to relax me and started wheeling me to the OR. Well, we went down a hall and came to a stop at these big wooden doors (which I assume was the OR) and that's the last thing I remember! I'm pretty sure I was asleep (from the relaxer injection) before they ever put me out.

When I awoke (groggily), I was in a LOT of pain. Major CRAMPING, I was in the recovery room and this nurse was sitting right next to my bed staring at me. Then she said "Barbara are you in Pain", I shook my head, and she said what kind, I told her cramping and then she said on a scale from 1-10, 10 being the highest, what is your pain, I replied 9. So she gave me a shot with pain medicine and within 2 minutes, I fell right back to sleep!

I still had major cotton mouth when I woke up. They gave me a sprite, but that didn't help. Then they had me eat a cracker so I could take more pain medicine. Well, with my MAJOR cotton mouth, eating a cracker was litterally like eating a cotton ball. I could not even swallow it. I had to wash it down with the sprite.
We finally left around 2:30pm, I went back to my sisters for a bit and then Russ picked me up and I went home. I tried to sleep, but everyone was calling to see how I am. I appreciated it, but at the same time, I just wanted to sleep!

About 7pm that night, I started getting major gas pains. It hurt so bad and it hit about every 10 minutes! All I wanted to do was Pass Gas and I couldn't. I couldnt even burp! I also had problems going pee. It would just dribble out. I just wanted to have a really good pee and it was not happening. I went to bed around 9pm, but hardly slept because of the gas pain. I was up like every 20 minutes. I finally got up at 7am and at 7:45am, it finally happened............I passed gas! It was such a relief! And the passing gas pretty much lasted all day, but I didn't care! It felt great!

I was still in a lot of pain. Took my pain meds every 4 hours. I stayed in bed pretty much all day. Got up a few times to eat and answer the door (flower delivery). Tried to sleep all day, but again everyone was calling me non-stop! So again no rest. Went to bed around 10pm and again did NOT Sleep. No gas this time, but I'm a belly sleeper. I can't sleep unless I'm on my stomache. Well, obvioulsy after this surgery and with 4 incisions, this was not a possibiity. I got about 3 hours TOTAL. I woke up extremely bitchy!!

So, here I am. Saturday morning. Took a shower (finally) cause I itched so bad and I felt like a grease ball. Felt pretty good after the shower, so I started a little laundry and cleaned up the bedroom. Then I realized that this might be a little too much because now I'm in extreme pain. Taking more pain meds and going to try and sleep. Hope tomorrow is better!!
I'm tired of lying in bed. I just want to feel normal again.

Well, that's it. This is a long enough post. Actually took 2 days to write. I'm off gto rest.

Reason to Celebrate!

I talked to the Dr this morning and he said..........................If I eat light and have a BIG POOP today, I don't need to do an Enema!!! OMG! That is SOOOOOOO great!
So, now I'm eating Chicken Broth and drinking water. And I took a Dulcalax just to make sure.
All my fears about this surgery are completely GONE now. I was only ever worried about having to do that nastiness!! I was not worried about the actual surgery!

Oh! I forgot to tell you..........

My best friend Erin got me a Wish bone necklace for my birthday last August. Your supposed to make a wish when you put it on. It will eventually wear off and when it does, your wish should come true that month. Well, MINE FINALLY CAME OFF YESTERDAY!!! And guess where it came off????? In the Dr's office!!! My gynocology DR!! Isn't that wierd? Think it's a sign? I'm sure you realize what I wished for , to be pregnant OF COURSE!

Warning: Long Entry Ahead

Sorry I have not updated in awhile. I've wanted to, but it seems like I just run out of time every night.
Also, I had to go edit some of my past blogs because I found out I did not collapse my lung, I pinched a nerve in my shoulder blade (extremely close to my lung) which is why I felt like it was my lung due to the fact that it hurt to breath. I'm feeling 100% today. I had to work it out basically. The more active I was, the better it felt.



It is SO windy here. I almost blew away!!! It's like 25-35 mph winds with wind gusts of 50+ mph. It's crazy. This weather is so crazy. We've had weather from 80 degrees to 50 degrees overnight. My sinuses are going crazy. I've had a constant sinus headache for days.
I wish mother nature would just pick a temperature range and stick to it.



Today I had my Pre-Op appointment with my Doctor and with the surgery department. My appointment with my Doctor was at 8:30. I got there, they weighed me and then I went in and waited for the Dr. He came in, told me that my surgery was Thursday (already knew that), told me they would look for endimetriosis and if I had it they would remove it. Also he said if I had fluid in my tubes, they'd remove my tubes WHAT???? I did NOT like that.
Anyway, then he asked if I had any questions, I said no and he passed me to the secretary who had my orders for the surgery. I went to check out and he CHARGED ME!! Can you freakin' believe that? How do you charge someone for a Pre-Op appointment (when your making a killing on the surgery) and you didn't do shit!! He talked to me for 5 freakin' minutes and charged me a $25 co-pay! I think its bullshit!!!


9:25am
Down to the out patient surgery center. I checked in, filled out a shit load of paper work and waited for them to call me in. I was there about 10 minutes before they called me in. Not bad.
First I met with the surgical nurse. She asked me a bunch of questions regarding my medical history and had me sign more papers saying I was aware that I could die or be paralyzed. Then she gave me these 2 tubes of stuff and told me I had to wash my entire body with this special soap on Wednesday night and Thursday morning before surgery. I have to turn off the shower lather up, wait 5 minutes and rinse!
Also, I have to give myself an enema What is up with that? They make all this money doing this stuff and I have to make sure that I'm clean enough (inside and out) for surgery? Isn't this there job! I've only had surgery one time and I was 5 years old, so I don't remember it really. I had no idea it was this scary.
After the surgical nurse was done with me, The anesthesia (sp?) nurse came in and asked me a bunch more questions. Reminded me that I could die or be paralyzed. Told me NO food or drink after midnight. Not even water! That's going to suck. I like to have something to drink in the morning when I get up. She even warned me not to swallow any water or paste when I brushed my teeth. I hope my surgery is in the morning.
Then she said make sure you wear something LOOSE and comfortable. I replied with "I've gained 12 pounds in a year, I don't have anything Loose and Comfortable". Luckily, I DO have my Grey's Anatomy Scrubs that Russ got me for Valentines Day. Those are nice and loose!


10:40am
Had to give a urine sample and blood. Urine sample no problem since I was about to pee my pants! Then time for the blood. This bitchy nurse comes over and tells to sit in the chair (the chair that they take blood in). Then she leaves me there. Never said she'd be right back or SOME ONE will be right with me. She didn't say crap! Just left me there! I waited for 25 freakin' minutes by myself. Finally, this guy comes carrying a little caddy full of needles and tubes. Along with him came a younger girl. He introduced her as his student (that was pretty obvious) and asked if I minded is she tied my arm and found the vein (since she's learning), he said she wont actually take your blood if you don't want her to, I just want her to practice finding the vein. I said No Problem. And I told them that if she wanted she could take my blood. I wasn't afraid. I figured I was in the hospital in the surgery department, I was pretty safe. Plus, this guy was right there and checking everything she did. So anyway, she finds the vein and puts the needle in....................then I hear "Ooops" . Luckily, she followed up with "Oh, there it goes. I thought I missed your vein". The guy was like "Don't EVER say Oops to a patient. Just fix the problem quietly. But definitely do NOT say Oops!" He was not very happy with her. I just laughed. I was alive and not bleeding, so why be upset? They took on VERY LARGE vial of blood and then said that's it. I was like YAY! Ever sine I've been TTC, I've had 6-9 vials of blood taken at a time, so only having one was a treat. I got up all excited to be able to leave since I'd been there for 3 hours and the guys like oh wait, we need one more vial. Then he yelled at the bitchy nurse for not letting him know that I needed this additional test. I was pissed that I had to sit back down, but happy that he told off the rude nurse. He was extremely apologetic and was very quick about getting the second vial. I finally got out of there at 11:30.



I'm very nervous about this surgery. Not that I'm scared I'm going to die, I'm just nervous about the whole thing. I wish they didn't have to tell you all this stuff. I'm not a details person. Just tell me your going to put me out and check for endimetriosis. All the details just make me worry about pain and complications. Now I'm going to spend 3 days thinking "What if?"
I think they should tell you all this stuff the day OF your surgery. Not 3 days before.



I picked my niece Kayla up after school today and she was asking me about my surgery (she's 6). Here's the conversation;

Kayla: What are they going to do to you during surgery?
Me: Well, they will just cut 2 little slits in my tummy and then they will use a little camera to look around.
Kayla: Is that how they are going to find your baby?
Me: Um.....no, there is no baby in there yet, but this may help us figure out why.

I'm thankful she was satisfied with that and didn't ask me anything else about that.

Well, I think I've written enough for today. Believe it or not, I have so much more I could write, but I think you are probably sick of reading it by now.

Love and Baby Dust

Next Step...............Surgery

Went to the appointment today. We found out All of our tests came out perfect except ONE test. That would be the CI-25 (I think) blood test. That test for endimitriosis (sp?). So to sum up a whole lot of information that I don't feel like typing, I'll just give you the plan.

I'm going on April 19th for a Laproscopy (sp?) to look for and remove endimitirosis. Then I'm going to start some meds for some protein thing and I'll take those for 2 months. Then we'll try to get pregnant naturally for a couple months (through summer anyway) and hopefully that will work.If not we'll look into IVF in September. So, that's the plan.



My lung is almost 100% healed. I'm feeling really good today. The morning was rough. Took me at least 3 minutes to remove my body from bed because it was so painful after sleeping. However, I realized the more I work it out, the better it feels. I cleaned my moms tonight and now it feels soooo much better. Should be good as new by tomorrow or Saturday. I hope!



I haven't heard from Jen today. Kinda worried. Usually I talk to her in the morning, but today I was at the Dr and I missed her. She did NOT update her blog, so I'm not sure what is going on today with her and I feel stressed about that. So, Jen if your reading this, please give me a comment and let me know your ok.



Well, I've had an incredibly LONG day, so I need to go to bed. Need some SERIOUS Beauty sleep!!

12 HOURS!!!!!!

OMG! In 12 hours, we'll be finding out if and WHAT is wrong with us!!
We have an appointment at the fertility clinic at 9:30am. I'm excited! I'm nervous!!! I'm crazy!!!
All this stuff keeps racing through my mind. What are they going to say? Whats the REAL problem???? What's the plan???????????




My Back is still KILLING ME! I felt better this afternoon, but once I got home it felt like someone stabbed me in my shoulder blade! I swear..........this is awful!!!! I've had it before and it takes a week to two weeks to go away. uuugggghhhh!!!!


Ok. I'm going to bed! I need to go early cause it' going to take awhile to "ACTUALLY" fall asleep.

Wish Me Luck!!

Love And Baby Dust!!

Here's a Quickie!!

Ok, first off, I pulled a back muscle or have a Pinched Nerve. Not sure which one. Freakin Sucks! It's painful as hell. However, I'll deal with it. It's happened before.


I'm psyched that Larry Birkhead is Danilynns father! I know that this may not be a major thing in todays world, but I worry about the influences surrounding that baby. I mean I'm sorry, but Howard K. Stern sat by and video taped Anna Nicole 8 months pregnant and stoned as all shit!!! IF you WERE the babies Daddy, you would NOT let that crap go on. Anyway, I basically think Larry is going to be a good dad to her. I think he's the most desearving.


I went to a Jewelry Party tonight. It was fun but LONG. Especially since I have a collapsed lung. Didn't stop me from having fun though. I tend to be the life of the party regardless of where I am. It's a gift. Anyhoo, I got my mother a mom's day gift and bought myself a little something. I'll put a pic up later when I get. It's HOT!!! Well, not hot, but nice.!!


I'm SO SAD about Hopeful & Laura! I really thought they would a get a BFP this month. I'm just SHOCKED that it didn't happen. It seemed like it was a done deal. This TTC shit sucks! I can't believe how your body and your mind can screw with you. I'm sorry for them. I'm sorry that they got manipulated by this TTC game! I'm sorry girls! Love You!!