I'm Off..................

To Myrtle Beach

I probably will not be updateing for a week or so.

Before I left for my Vacation though , I just have some prayers to send out.

Melissa & Patty - I'm praying that you will get through the passing of Suzi. I pray that you two will be able to lean on each other and get each other through the loss of your beloved friend. I am so sorry that you both have to deal with the loss of such a wonderful friend and pray that you will find a way to turn this tragedy into something good. I love you both and I'm sending you both many hugs.

Jen - I'm so sorry that you are feeling so bad and I pray that you start to feel better soon. I love you lots and I'm looking forward to chatting again when you're ready.

Mamajenn - I am amazed at your strength lately. I can't imagin losing a son. And the fact that you lost a son and you have to greive for him, yet stay strong for your son and daughter that your still carrying is just too impossible for me to imagine. Yet you're doing it. Not only are you doing that, but your taking care of your two daugters you already have. I pray for you and your unborn babies everyday. Your strength is incredible and I just want you to know that I pray for you and your family daily.

Sandi & Ben - Congrats on your BFP. I keep you in my prayers everyday. I just know that this is your sticky baby. I pray that you have a nice and easy 9 months and I'm looking forward to seeing what two artists can produce. Love and Prayers coming your way!

Love and Prayers to ALL no my friends.

I'm Sick...............

I caught school cooties from my neice Kayla. I started coming down with it Thursday. The whole dry itchy throat. Then Friday, I was so out of it, I had to leave work at 11pm and I just came home and slept all day.
Today I still feel like crap. However, I was well enough to get all the laundry done and the kitchen clean. Tomorrow I'll have to do the rest of the house.

Speaking of my niece. Right now I take her to school every morning (hence how she passed her cooties to me) since my sister has to go to work at 6:45am. However, she just got a new job as director of a home health care agency and her hours will be 8-5 which means...................no more morning Kayla for me. This makes me sad. I love having her every morning. So as of October 15th, I'm all by myslef in the mornings.

Well, that's it for now. Time for more medicine and relaxation.

Lower Back Pain..........Hmmmmm........

Could AF becoming?????
I would be ecstatic (sp?) They have told me it would be 6-8 weeks after my last shot and I'm on about 5 weeks. But my lower back hurts. Just like when AF comes. Could she be coming early??? How cool would that be!!!
Although, I was looking forward to my Myrtle Beach trip and not having any restrictions on drinking. But hey.........if she wants to come early, I'll take it!!!
I'm itching to get back in the game!!!

I don't Understand

I thought my hot flashes were on their way out. This weekend I had hardly ANY. Then today, I've had one every hour ALL DAY! What is going on??? This is so frustrating. I want to be done with this already. I'm trying to stay focused on the positive. The reason I'm going through this is because I want a baby. But it's getting hard. I have no idea how people do this for 6 months. I'm doing it for 2 months and I don't think I could have done it for 6.


Speaking of trying to have a baby. I feel like I live on Wisteria lane. My neighbors are wonderful, but good lord, they know EVERYTHING about us. We meet a new neighbor every couple days. As soon as someone new sees me outside they come over and talk to me. I think this is great. However, EVERYONE of them, during conversation, says "So, I hear your working on trying to have kids". Um..................why is this the BIG news of the neighborhood? Maybe it's just because I have not lived in a real neighborhood since I was 18, but it just feels wierd that everyone knows this. I mean the person we bought the house from knew this info from Russ. Then he told ONE neighbor. Now there are 6 other neighbors that know. So my thought is they are standing around talking about the "NEW People" in the neighborhood. It doesn't really bother me. It's just weird. Now I feel like everyone will ask me from now on "So, any luck yet?" and I really really don't want that.
The other weird thing is.............My favorite neighbor April had the SAME fertility Dr that I have. It's so weird because we have plenty of fertility clinics here and the office I go to has 6 drs. So what are the chances that I live across the street from someone who had the same Dr 4 years ago. Strange. The other funny thing is..............it took her 2 1/2 years to get pregnant with her first and 2 years later she got pregnant while on the pill!

Russ and I have been getting along so great. This weekend was so wonderful. I almost felt like were dateing again. We talked and watched football together and ate dinner together. We had great "Loving" and we even MADE OUT! It was just a great weekend.
Then today......................................when he came in the door he came over and kissed me!! He never does that. He always kisses me goodbye, but he's never kissed me when he came home. My heart melted.


Well, This is like my 4th post in 3 days. I don't want to overwhelm you.

Have a Great Night!!

7 1/2 HOURS!!!

That's how long I slept last night without a Hot Flash!! Holy Crap it felt great!!! I woke up so refreshed. I felt like a whole new women! I think my hot flashes may start getting fewer and farther between which is REALLY great. I'm so done with these things. I know it will all be worth it when I'm holding a baby though. I just need to be patient.

Speaking of babies! I went to see the twins again today. They are so cute! I even held them. They are so different. Not even just their physical looks, but their facial expressions and their movements. Cole hates his diaper being changed. He crys and wiggles. Bryce could care less. He just lays there and trys to stay awake. They are just adorable!
Here are some more pics.




























































































This one is my favorite. Sarah's sister Karen and I were giving the boys some new Do's. We call this the "Alfalfa" (sp?) look:



















Bryce is a very good sport.


Now I'm home. Making dinner. YES! I'm actually making the dinner. Not Russ. I know, it's surprising to me too. We are getting ready to watch.................................

VS.

I'll be watching this man




Mmmmm...................Love me some Tony Romo.

GO COWBOYS!!!!

Such a Great Night

Russ and I had such a GREAT night last night! We sat outside and talked or HOURS! We talked about all sorts of stuff. We have not just sat and talked in forever. It was so nice. Then of course we had great sex
We did not get to sleep until 3:00am!!


I had to go to work at 9am. I didn't want to go, but I'm so behind. The only way to get caught up is to go in on Saturday when I have no interruptions. I worked from 9am-4pm. It was a long Saturday.

I was supposed to go the hospital to see Sarah and the boys, but I just couldn't do it.
It was so hard yesterday. I know that it will get easier. I know that my turn will come. I know that it's ridiculous to feel so jealous. But I can't help it. It hurts. I'm going to go up tomorrow and hang out for awhile with her.

I came home and did some Laundry and Cleaned the house. Now i'm just chilling out! I'm so tired I can barely keep my eyes open.

Well, the dryer just buzzed. I need to go hang some clothes.

My Friend had Her Babies!!!

I know it's been awhile since I updated. But I'm having a rough week and I don't have a lot of "Positive" stuff to write about, so I decided to NOT subject you to my negativity.
However, today my friend Sarah had her twins. They are beautiful. I was so excited to see them. However, the minute I walked out of her room, I was in tears. I'm so happy for her. But I ache like I've never ached before. I've heard about babies being born on EB , but to see real babies, up close and personal, it was just really hard.

Anyway, back to the positive. Here is the info on Sarahs twins.

Jonathan Cole:

Born @ 1:03pm today.

6lbs 15oz

19" Long

Going by the name Cole

James Bryce:

Born @ 1:04pm Today

7lbs 2oz

19 1/2" Long

Going by the name Bryce

And here are some pics of them together:

I realize they look nothing alike. However, Cole looks just like his Daddy and Bryce looks just like his Mommy!! And can that girl Grow some Babies or WHAT???? Those are some BIG boys for being twins!!!

Congrats Sarah and Jonathan!! Your Boys are Gorgeous!!!

Well that's it for me tonight.

More this weekend!!

Love & Baby Dust!!!