Dreams

So, last night I had a dream I was pregnant. Not only was I pregnant, I was pregnant with TWINS. I don't know if it happened naturally or via IVF, but there I was in the Hospital with Russ laying on a bed waiting to get checked out by a nurse. I had a big contraction and then some little ones and thought I was in labor. Turns out it was just Braxton Hicks and I still probably had a week to go. The nurse said "So, what are we having?" and I responded with "Two of something, not sure if they are boys or girls". This is how I know it was a dream, because I'm not patient enough to wait until birth to find out the sex of my baby/babies.
The nurse said I could go home and to come back once my water broke.
I looked over at Russ and and said "I'm too big to go home. Can I just stay here until these babies come out?" I was rubbing my very BIG belly at the time.
That was it. That was the end of my dream. I have not had a dream that I was pregnant in like a year! I woke up so happy. Even though I wasn't pregnant in real life, it was nice to rub my pregnant belly even if only in my dreams.


12 MORE DAYS!!!
Until I move! I finished up a lot of packing this weekend. Really all I have left is the kitchen. And not a lot in the kitchen. Just pots and pans and plates and bowls. I've packed the majority of the pantry. I've packed all but 4 coffee cups and 4 regular glasses. I really have nothing left to do in the next 12 days. I guess that's nice because once I move, I'm going to have a TON of stuff to do. It feels so good to be this far ahead of the game.


I just passed the 2 year mark of trying to get pregnant. I've been on my Lupron shot for almost a month. I have hot flashes daily and I'm still spotting. However, I don't have mood swings. Well, I am more emotional sometimes. I cry when I see pregnant people. I cry when I hear about someone getting pregnant. I cry when I see new baby pic or belly pics on EB. This is why I joined Jen's new site http://fertilitychallenged.myfreeforum.org/index.php . It's pretty much the same as our EB site but with out all the new mom sections. I'm so happy for all the new moms on EB, but it's really really tough to read about everyones expeiriences when your defective. I will not have a chance to even try to get pregnant until probably October or November and right now, I just can't go on EB much. It is so painful. I don't know how to explain it. I'm happy for them, but I ache so much inside that I just can't look anymore. I'm still going to lurk on EB, and I'll be excited for everybody on there, but I need a site with mostly infertile people. I think it will help me cope over the next few months.

Well, enough updates. I need to do some work!

2 Weeks..............

Until I move. I'd be nervous but since I pretty much have everything packed, nothing to stress about! I'm glad I have a lot done because I'm so tired and head-achey every day now, that I don't really get a lot done anymore. All the major stuff is done.

I really have nothing else interesting to say. How sad is that. hmmm............this is a really boring post.

Well, maybe I'll post again later. If anything happens worth writing about.

Later!

F'ing ANTS!!!

I HATE ANTS!!!
This is the ONLY bug problem we've ever had at our house. Usually, they come at the end of June as it starts to get hot. I always have to move the cat food downstairs because they are really attracted to that. I had Terminex all last year and it didnt' do shit!! Terminex sucks! I tried everytrick. Ant traps, poison,comet, nothing worked. Well, this year, I found something that worked. It's RAID Ant & Roach spray and it works up to 12 weeks! So, I sprayed the inside around all windows and doors and outside in June and it has worked wonderfully!! Ants still outside, but NONE inside. So, on Sunday, I found 4 or 5 ants by the cat food. So, I figured my spray is wearing off and I went and bought a new can and sprayed everything again. No ants until.............................this morning! There were about 100 crawling up the wall next to my door and all over the counter. I was so PISSED! Normally, I would just be annoyed, but today is the day of the PEST INSPECTION that the buyers of our house scheduled. Why did the fucking ants come back. Just to screw with me. Just because this is the LAST thing we'd have to worry about before closing? Now I realized that the pest inspection is mostly for termites, but I don't really need ANT INFESTATION to be reported back to the buyers. Especially since it's not been bad this year. RAID usually does the trick. I think those little fuckers just found the ONE spot I missed!


My head is killing me. This is my 3rd headache since Friday. Usually, I get headaches when it's dry out. If it hasn't rained in awhile or the air just lacks moisture, then I get headaches. However, it's rained a LOT lately. There is plenty of moisture in the air, yet I've had all these headaches. So, I've now determined that it's the Lupron shot. Thanks Lupron.
The side effects of this medicine just keep coming and coming.
Another symptom is tiredness. I'm so exhausted. All Day. When I get home, I have to force myself to pack or clean just to stay awake. As soon as I stop, I could fall alseep. I'm usually so tired that I have to really work hard to eat dinner. Like it's a chore to lift a fork to my mouth. Last night I went to bed at 8:30pm and I still could NOT get out of bed today. Now I'm at work, I have a terrible headache and I feel like if I shut my eyes for more then 10 seconds, I'd be out like a light.
I have way too much to do in the next 2 weeks to be this tired.

Well, that's all the whining I'm going to do this morning.

Sorry!

I know I have not updated in forever. BUT..............I have very good excuses! I've been very busy with the house buying/selling, packing, etc. Not to mention, this Lupron shot has taken a LOT out of me. I've been extremely tired. Russ had a 2 week training and test that gives him an engineering certificate (green belt) that he needs to go on to the black belt certificate for engineering which will make him LOTS of moeny. So basically, I've done EVERTHING for this move because between working a bazillion hours, he's spent every night studying. I've made all the phone calls to the Finance guy, realtor, etc. I've set up all the appointments. I'm doing all the packing and whole patching and painting. I've done Everything. And I'm too tired by the end of the night to update my blog.

The good news is Russ passed his test with a 97. The bad news is, in a week, he'll start classes for the black belt which is MUCH harder.

Everything is going well with the move so far. Yesterday we had the inspections with both houses. The house we are buying had a couple things pointed out in the inspection, but nothing major at all. We haven't heard about our current house yet. We should hear today.

As I walked around the new house yesterday, I realized how much work there is for me to do. The house is very nice, but I hate all the wallpaper and paint in EVERY ROOM. So, there will be a lot of painting. I'll start with the spare bathroom, because that's the worst! Oh, I probably will not change anything in the 1/2 bath. I do like that room. Maybe tile the floor.

Russ and I went furniture shopping last night. We have a very small den and it's too small for our current furniture, so I wanted a couple recliners. Russ wanted a formal dining room set for your dining room. He's never had a formal dining room and even though we may never use it, it's one of the first rooms you see when you walk in the house and he wants it to be nice.

Here's some pics:

I'm starting to get the Lupron Induced Hot Flashes. Mostly at night. Not really bad though. I can handle them. So Far. I get my second shot on August 8th. I'm worried that my side effects will increase more. But, so far aside of losing 10 quarts or so of blood, this shot has not been bad. (knock on wood)

August 10th is the big moved date. The day before Russ's 40th Birthday! He get's a a new house and dining set for his b-day. Not bad eh? I can't wait!!!!!!!!!!

It's making me crazy!! 18 DAYS!!!!!

Well, I need to get some work done. I'll TRY and update more. But I make NO promises!!!

Back From Vacation!

I'm so tired!! I had not idea going away could be so exhausting! It did not help that I went to bed at 1am last night (THANKS MELISSA & PATTI!!) and we had to get up at 4:30am to head out to the airport! I was extremely tired!
I slept a little on the plane, but not much. When I got home, I took a four hour nap and woke up with my Period. Now I have to call the Dr and start Lupron this week. I'm so dreading it. I'm begining to think that this whole baby thing is never going to happen for me. I'm usually really positive about it, but I was really sad today and I just have this feeling like it's not going to happen. On a positive note, I had ZERO cramps and ZERO , so maybe that removing the endometriosis was a good idea. I almost feel normal and it's the first day of my period. Kinda wierd

Vacation was really fun. We got in around 11pm on Tuesday night to Rochester and we hung out with my Sister in law and nephew and few of his friends. Wednesday morning we headed up to the 1,000 Islands. It rained the WHOLE day! We saw NO fireworks, just sort of hung out in the room.
Thursday, my friend Erin came up and we hung all hung. My in-laws, Russ, and Erin. Had some drinks and sat on the dock and watched all the people and the boats. Friday Erin and I left the Islands and went back to Rochester for Girls Night! About 8 girls that I used to work with up there came over and we had a GREAT time just catching up and being goofy. I POAS (that means Pee'd on a Stick Melissa) it came out negative, so I had some drinks. Maybe a little too many because the next day I was very Blah! I had NO energy to do Anything! My mother-in-law was throwing a party for Russ and his Dad. Russ turns 40 next month and his dad is turning 60 this week. We had a really good time at the party. I got to spend like 6 hours or more catching up with Melissa & Patty who I have not seen in a long time. It was great to catch up.

Tomorrow is my 2nd Anniversary and my Dad's 60th birthday. Damn, we are all getting so OLD! I'm not sure what we are going to do yet. My dad is out of town at a Elks Convention, so Russ and I may just go out to dinner and have a little champagne

Well, I'm off to bed! I have to start getting my rest. I have a LOT of packing to do. I'm moving to my new house on AUGUST 10th! Yay!!

SOLD!!

Well, it took only ONE week and my house is sold! We signed all the paperwork today. We also signed all the paperwork for our NEW house. See the Link below to see where I'll be living in about a month:

http://homes.realtor.com/search/listingdetail.aspx?zp=28147&ml=3&mnp=20&mxp=19&bd=4&bth=4&typ=1&sid=0b68efce49d5451cb9e60351f7f17cb7&pg=2&lid=1081785091&lsn=14&srcnt=26#Detail

The pictures of the inside do it NO justice. I have some better pics,but they are on my computer at work. I'll post them when I get back from vacation.
I'm so excited to move!!! Not really excited about packing, but once I get started, it will be hard to get me to stop!
My family is REALLY excited because I'll be so close to them now. Where I live now is about 1/2 hour or more. Where I'm moving, I'll be 5 minutes from my sister and niece and I'll 10 minutes from work and my parents! Yay!!~

Tomorrow we are leaving for the 1,000 Islands in NY. I'm excited. It's my favorite trip of the year. We go every year with my inlaws and it's so relaxing. Also, I'll go back to Rochester for a couple days and see all my friends. We're going to have a girls night and play mad libs. I packed a pregnancy test to take before girls night because if my some chance I'm pregnant, I'll be having a Alcohal-Free girls night. That would make me happy as EVER!! How nice would it be to sell my house, buy a new house, and get pregnant all in the same week. I probably have a better chance of winning the lotto. But one can dream!

Well, I have to finish packing and eat some dinner. This will be my last update until I get home on Sunday because I am leaving the computer and the thermometer at HOME!! No stress this week. I'll have enough stress when I get back home with all the packing I'll need to do.

Love & Baby Dust!!